Monday, May 24, 2010

Broken

just looking at the picture on my blog makes me cry
two perfect feet
able to walk
able to sit with feet hanging down
feet in the sand
feet with flip flops


it all changed in a matter of seconds for me on Saturday


four cement steps
wet with clorox and water from a hard days work
down, down, and crack
closed my eyes and then looked to see my right foot pointing in the opposite direction
gripped by fear and paralyzed by pain
bone almost through the skin

firemen, paramedics, ambulance ride
drugs, screaming, hand holding
crying, crying, crying
prayers, silent prayers, loud prayers
waiting, waiting, waiting

a 3.5 hour surgery
pins, screws, plates
physical therapy
non weight bearing for up to a month
unbearable pain
can't see past today

But resting in the fact that this is the plan God had for me. This was the best plan. Let Him be glorified through my weakness. May my strength be His strength... Jesus Bring the Rain

6 comments:

Frankie said...

Be still and know- He is taking care of you and He has placed wonderful friends and family in your life. We all need to be reminded of that sometimes. Love you bunches and am here to do whatever you need! :)

Karen said...

My heart breaks for you. Seeing you in the trauma room just about killed me. I was trying SO hard to keep it together for you & for Joey. I am so sorry this happened! You will run again, you will wear your flip flops again, you will get pedicures again, we will go to the beach together again & put our toes in the sand with our favorite songs playing on our ipods. You may regret having a therapist as your best friend by the time it's all over with but you know I am here for you. You are my sister & I love you so much. I can't see to type for the tears in my eyes. I wish I could take away your pain. You WILL get through this. God will not give you more than you can handle. I am here for you 24/7 but you know that. I love you & we are praying for you constantly.

Erica said...

Hoping for a speedy recovery! Everything will come together and YOU WILL be just fine! I know you must be questioning why this had to happen, but one day you will understand why this was in God's plan. I will pray for a pain free, sleepful night for you.

On a lighter note...hoping to make you smile...I hope you keep blogging during your recovery. This post was so wonderfully written...Haiku style. Pain medicine is good for your writing.

The Price's said...

Marsha...you have been weighing heavy on my heart over teh last few days. I know, as a runner, how hard it is to sit and do nothing (not too mention having 2 kids in the mix)....so I have said several prayers for you and for fast healing mentally and physically. If only I lived closer, I would love to help you out!!! Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you (and the family). Keep your chin up, and remember Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the Lord. "Plans to proser you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and future". God has a funny way of slowing us down, doesn't He??

Thinking of you!
Paige

The Price's said...

Marsha...you have been weighing heavy on my heart over teh last few days. I know, as a runner, how hard it is to sit and do nothing (not too mention having 2 kids in the mix)....so I have said several prayers for you and for fast healing mentally and physically. If only I lived closer, I would love to help you out!!! Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you (and the family). Keep your chin up, and remember Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the Lord. "Plans to proser you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and future". God has a funny way of slowing us down, doesn't He??

Thinking of you!
Paige

Tricia said...

You are making me cry... I am praying for you sweet friend. I called today but you were sleeping...

I love this post... love how you are keeping your eyes on Him, clinging to Him, and crying out to Him. There is no one better to turn to, for He is faithful and true, and I am certain He will teach you much through this trial, as you are still and listen for His voice...

Praying for you and am here to help in anyway...